Life at Home
My thoughts out in the open. Please don't judge or take what I say personal. These are my own thoughts and opinions.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Sorry for the Wait
Saturday, June 8, 2013
First Week
Started my internship this past week. First day was in Manhattan. It was orientation and training, the usual first day stuff. Then they decided to have me go to JFK for the rest of the week. I'm right next door to my dad now. Not happy about that. No ID so I have to be escorted to and from the office. I can't even leave the office all day. Plus there are no windows so I feel sick everyday. Oh and on Thursday I had to go home because I had food poisoning. Good thing the bathroom is inside the office. I'm basically supposed to be doing a quality assurance project but its taking off slowly. Been making copies and stapling papers. The only good part is I'm making $20/hr. I'll be able to get my car fixed and buy myself a computer for my birthday in 11 days. And also maybe a nook or kindle. So far week one was good.
Sunday, June 2, 2013
All Too Fast
So I went to Barbados for a few days with my mom and her friend. It was my gift from my mom. Those few days were perfect. Come back home and I'm so depressed. I'm invisible to everyone. People who are supposed to be my friends are lying to me and leading me on. They've been having parties and BBQ's and not inviting me but invited people close to me. I'm not alone with this feeling of being left out. It's really annoying and on top of it my dad got me this internship that starts way too soon. I've been thinking about ending my life for the past 3 hours. No one will care. They say they will but they don't. Been crying for the past 2 hours. Got my car back earlier today and all I wanna do is drive it straight into a tree or an oncoming train. I just wanna be at a better place and stop crying myself to sleep every night.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Been a While
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Graduation Rehearsal
So today was my rehearsal for graduation. It definitely was a long day. From construction traffic to being lost in Brooklyn, I'd say I'm super tired. Spent time with an old friend but it still felt lonely. It finally hit me as I cried in the car as soon as I drove into Queens. I'm graduating. Life begins. Still can't get a job. My head really hurst from the sun being so hot today. I feel even more alone as each day passes. Maybe I'm depressed. But who wouldn't be in this world we live in. Well that's it for this, it was a long day of just driving. Ugh.